Being A Survivor of Sexual Abuse in Church


When I became a Christian at university, I was taught, to my absolute shock, that I was clean and loved, and all my shame had been taken away. However, when I hear sermons or read bits of books about sexuality and about the proper place for sex, an image of myself as somehow damaged feels far more real to me. I sit there wondering if the gospel was even really meant for me because I can never be the kind of pure that these speakers or writers want me to be. It’s in no way my intention to suggest that these preachers and writers are wrong to hold their carefully thought through, biblically-based beliefs, or that my feelings are as a result of malice on their part. Rather, I believe I’m left feeling like this because we, as a Church, simply aren’t aware of the effect of our language and attitudes on a person who has experienced sexual violence.

Sexual violence is widespread in UK society, with 31 per cent of young women aged 18-24 reporting having experienced sexual abuse in childhood (NSPCC, 2011) and one in five women aged 16 – 59 experiencing some form of sexual violence since the age of 16. Violence against women is happening in Christian relationships too – 30% of young, Christian women surveyed by Soul Action agreed or strongly agreed that they had experienced fear of their partner in a relationship and 42% had been forced to perform sexual acts they didn’t want to by a partner.

 In the Church, we often fail to recognise the extent of this violence or consider that there are women in our congregations have been subjected to it.

Being subjected to sexual violence can make a person feeling dirty and ashamed and embarrassed, damaged and broken and completely unlovable. I believe the language we use to talk about sexuality in Church, or indeed our failure to talk about sexual violence at all, act to reinforce those feelings and that this is something that we need to address.

We live in a society where the perpetration of sexual violence is often misunderstood; one in which it’s not unheard of for a judge to ask a rape victim: “Why couldn’t you have just kept your legs together?”

Victims of sexual violence are often treated without kindness and compassion, asked intrusive questions and judged according to what they were wearing, how drunk they were, and whether or not they’ve had sexual intercourse before. The Church should be counter-cultural in this area, and through that, be a witness for Jesus in the way we respond to sexual violence. I don’t have the words or the wisdom to deal with this area fully, but I’d like to suggest just a few things I think could help:

Firstly, I think we need to include discussion of sexual violence, where appropriate, in our books and sermons about sexuality generally, and refrain from using language that excludes people who have experienced sexual violence. I’ve listened to quite a few sermons and read a few books on sexuality since becoming a Christian, and I’ve noticed that sometimes the existence of people who are sexually violent is not discussed or even acknowledged. In my mind this is concerning. If the Church is to present a view of purity that involves not having sex before marriage, I think it’s important that we acknowledge that for some people, this is not a choice. I also don’t think it should operate in a way that makes those people who have had consensual sex outside of marriage feel ashamed either, but that isn’t the topic of this blog.

To sit through a sermon or discussion that calls sex outside of its “rightful context” sinful or “perverse” without any mention of sexual violence – and how it is the responsibility of the perpetrator and absolutely not the fault of the person who was subjected to such violation – can lead to the victim of sexual violence feeling ashamed, sinful and perverse – feelings that will often already run very deep because of having been subjected to abuse. Failing to address sexual violence contributes to societal taboos around the issue, which in turn contributes to a culture of shame.

I would like to see, where appropriate, pastors and authors speaking lovingly and compassionately to those who have been subjected to sexual violence in their sermons and books, recognising their experiences and assuring them that they aren’t damaged or perverse and that they are as much included in both the gospel and the church community as anybody else.

I would also like pastors refraining from using the language of “saving oneself” for marriage, because I believe that the use of this terminology, and similar phrases to the same effect, can be really unhelpful. Even if a pastor has acknowledged the existence of sexual violence with compassion and sensitivity, to talk of saving oneself gives the impression that those subjected to sexual violence are damaged or not worth as much as those who have not had been violated by another person, once again reinforcing feelings of shame.

As churches, we must recognise the prevalence of sexually violent people in society and ensure that in every staff team there are people who are trained and equipped to walk with those who have had been subjected to such horrific pain. It would be an incredible way to witness to Jesus if our churches were places where people did not have to fear judgement if they talked about their experiences.

If we become more willing to talk about the injustice of sexually violent behaviour, and to ask God to give us His heart for this injustice, then will we be able to treat those who have been subjected to it with the love and compassion of Jesus.

For more information about how to address issues of violence and abuse in your church and support those who have been subjected to it, please take a look at Restored’s Churches Pack.

If you have been affected by any of the issues mentioned in this blog post and would like to seek support or advice from someone specially trained to do so, we recommend the following organisations’ websites and helplines:

Rape Crisis (England and Wales)

Rape Crisis (Scotland)

Rape Crisis Network (NI and Republic of Ireland)

Survivors UK (helpline specifically for male survivors)

The Student Counselling Service at your University